and now he hates me

i am so stupid. i am a bad writer and this man took everything i said and twisted it into some awfulness to fit into his self hatred. i was just being curious and i never meant to hurt this man. i asked questions like i ALWAYS do with ALL of my online friends but he took those questions as accusations and judgement and thats NOT what i was doing. i feel horrible and he has made me feel like its my fault that he twisted my words. i may have to just give up on this online friendship and move on to the others that i communicate with. none of them have ever taken my words in such a mean way. i didnt mean to hurt him. i wouldnt do that and he acts like i did it on purpose. hes really fuckin messed up. and i thought i could at least understand him and let him talk if he felt the need to. i wasnt trying to sound condescending and i wasnt trying to be the big sister but im a girl and thats what we do. we give advise and we say "awwwwe" when things are bad or have gone bad. i just love people and want to understand people and human nature and if i end up helping thats fine. if not/ thats fine too.

im gonna lose a connection soon so i have to go. almost home.

this guy

if he ever saw me in person hed never trust again.

if i stopped being his friend it would crush him.

im actually helping someone in this life. maybe thats my purpose here. maybe thats y he was "sent to me". maybe thats y hes in my life// so i can help him move on.

to mr arrogant

first of all i wasnt yelling at u. dont be so sensitive. and wow. mr. "i dont swear" said damn. if ur implying that im the one who is arrogant ur wrong. and im not pushing people away. im trying to be honest and open with people. i tell it like i see it. always have always will. i KNOW im smarter than most people //especially in my small little town. i dont rub it in all of their faces. i dont NOT be friends with them cuz of it. i could. i could go around saying i have a 180 iq and u dont. in a very childish way. but i dont care about that. iq and intelligence levels are NOT whats important. how u treat people is what matters. i love people and i love ALL of them that i meet // smart or stupid// rich or poor// fat or skinny// crazy or sane// online or in person// not u. u pick only the smart rich skinny sane people. well my momma isnt any of those. ive learned from her that u have to be open to ALL relationships with ALL different kinds of people. my momma wouldnt be on ur list of important people that get ur oh so special attention? u dont think ur arrogant? u dont think that ur behavior is arrogant? the way u act like ur better than other people. really? i know im rambling and might not make sense but oh well. tell me something. have u ever once struggled in ur life? have u ever had to do things on ur own? without the help of anyone? im up visiting my dad right now so i should go. i know u prob wont respond but thats ok. i dont care. /// no thats not true. i DO care. i care about u. i care about my online friends across the US. but u dont need n e one else to care about u cuz ur on ur own and u dont need n e body.

Study Hall

thanks to an online buddy on youtube i found Foamy the Squirrel. this is how i spent study hall today// thank God for earphones! :p






"Tis the season to shut the fuck up and stop being a whiny little bitch! Stop ruining the holidays you neo yuppie scum bag! Or I'll beat you with a baby Jesus!"


And my favorite one... I think...

its been to long

so ive been away from the computer for a while. i just spend so much time on it doing homework that i tend to stay away from it in any free time i have. but i thaught i'd update everyone on what's been goin on lately. /// i mean other than school.

lets start with Ms. Eileen. she passed away two weeks ago. her daughter called me to let me know and i've been sobbing quite a bit. tho i didn't know her long i loved her. she was a very special lady and i loved all of her stories and helping her with her attic and going thru photo albums and stuff. her daughter is sending me one of Ms. Eileen's dolls from when she was a kid. i'm going to miss her. going back to NC for visits just won't be the same. they had her cremated like she wanted and her ashes were spread over the ocean at Cape Hatteras// her favorite place to visit in the Outer Banks in NC.

next to update on is that i got into 3 more colleges. yeppers i've been accepted into Stanford, University of PA, Penn State, and Duke //but i have no desire to go to Duke at all. Dad made me apply there. i havent heard back from MIT and i'm starting to think that's where i'd really like to go. i thaught i wanted to go into psychology but now i'm thinking i should jump into comuters because that really is the future. i already help with the school's computer lab and all the school's computers// including the like main computers. but idk if that's really where my heart is tellin me to go. i'll have to think more on that subject cuz i've got to make up my mind in a few months. i'm hoping for some kickass scholarships to help out // especially if it's any of the above schools.

up next in the update /// my parkour practice/training has been up in the air. i dont get much free time lately to go outside and play or train. i'm feeling it in my muscles but i did sign up for an afterschool program to use the school's gym and i can use the gymnastics equipment/// mats/ balance beam/ bars/ rings/ /// i'm really bad on the rings but that's where i've started to practice the most cuz it's great upper body workout and will help for whenever i can get back out and do more parkour. see i can double up on my afterschool activities with this gym session cuz i can tutor to Amy at the same time that i'm doing pullups on the rings or testing my balance on the high beam. she can read the probs shes having diff with in calc and i can just tell her how to do it. sometimes i need to stop and actually show her but i can usually just explain it to her in words.

so the best part of the update. Carson. so we went thru a weird period where he was acting all sorts of strange. he was jealous of all the guys i was saying were cute. all those traceurs like David Belle/ Stephane Vigroux/ Blane/ TK17/ and Danny Illabaca /// he was jealous of them. now remember i LOVE redheads and Car is a redhead and i have always loved him. well it took us long enough to figure it out but we are currently dating and taking it kinda slow so we dont screw things up. we don't ever want to lose our friendship but quite frankly i think i'd spend the rest of my life with him. i know i'm young and should keep my options open but it's Car and we've been thru everything together. our first official date was about 3 weeks ago and he kissed me. i will say it was quite weird at first but then we got the hang of it. :P its that redhead charm and skill. :P i shouldn't go into detail cuz he reads it and i don't know who else does and i don't want to embarrass him. /// we've also been discussing my going away to school. Car will prob go to Penn State and as i've said/ i just don't know yet. we can totally survive anything i think cuz we've literally been together since forever. we have both agreed that i make the school decision based solely on ME and the school itself and not on Car and where he's going. Car likes to joke that i need to get the best degree from the best college so i can support him and we can be rich. :P

what else? i miss my dad. he calls every weekend. it's hard to get a call in during the week on both our sides but weekends he calls. it's still not the same as getting to see him all the time. i can just go outside and shoot hoops with him/ ya know?

so mom and joe are doing well. dad's not dating anyone right now. mom and dad have completely returned to being friends. they are both trying to convince me to go to college on this side of the country. i just don't know yet. Standford sounds pretty appealing. :P

well Car is picking me up in about an hour for a part so i better find something to wear.

peace out my online peeps!

i'm back in PA for at least another year

so i'm back in PA now and school started today. i'm loaded down with some AP courses but should have no probs getting thru it. somehow i ended up with 2 study halls so i'm going to help out one of my fave teachers with her "remedial" math kids. i didn't even know we had that class at our school, but it's like basic math/// for high schoolers! i'm also going to be tutoring at the elementary school helping kids who have trouble with reading. gotta keep my volunteer stuff up and my extra curriculars up for those wonderful colleges. i also have to find some sort of community service that i don't get paid for.

so my BFF carson has been acting kind of weird lately. car if ur reading this stop acting all awkward with me. it hasn't been that long since i've seen u. what's up? i think we are going to the drive in tonight tho so that should rock. it was closed when i came home for a visit.

i already miss my dad and a few things about NC. for one no matter where u looked there was always a place to do some pk. i'm quite hooked on this even tho i suck and need to practice more. i tried to do a running climb of a wall thingy and just chickened out. it's freaky running straight at a wall with no intentions of stopping. and i have no idea where to put my foot on the wall to begin with. i need a slow mo vid on utoob or something.

i also miss Miss Eileen. who woulda thunk it that i'd have a hard time leaving her?

i never got to meet the people on the pk forum. i didn't go to the pk jam cuz dad got into a minor accident// minor in the sense that he didn't get hurt but the car did. but so i didn't get to meet TK17 which is disappointing. such a cutie redhead. HOT! oh and theres some other redhead that is a part of that group too. he's really cute and i think he's more my age. i wulda gone just to see him. i still love redheads and yeah, i still believe my theory. even if my online friend on utoob says that's not true and that each person is different. i like my theory and maybe i'll do a study of it in college. :P i'm not a slut i promise. i just like male genitalia. :P i like big dicks and i can not lie! u other girls can't deny/// heehee :P i should write a parody!

well study hall is about over and i should prob do somethin a bit more productive. ///

U of Penn

oh and i got into U of Penn. i know i dont write like it on the net but i am pretty smart. :P i dont like to brag but ive got a 5.0 in high school// ive got plenty of extra curriculars// etc. i havent even graduated yet. and there are all these conditions that i have to meet in order for the early acceptance to be legit. my dad went there and im part cherokee so ive kinda got the "special privilege" thing stamped on my forehead. i dont even know if i wanna go there. im not the "typical" ivy league kinda girl/ u know? AND id be younger than everyone else cuz of graduating a yr and a half early. idk what i wanna do yet. i suppose i should wait to hear from the other places i applied.

last nite

so last nite i was up til 3am just chattin with friends online. the one girl out in cali seems really nice and i hope she finds what shes lookin for. her name is amy and she has been tryin to change her life for the better and become just a better person in general.
see/ i learn so much from my online friends. and this saturday i may even get to meet some of them at a parkour jam. im trying to get my dad to take me. one of the guys even gave me his phone number so if i get there late i can call and find out what part of campus they are at so i can join them. i cant wait. they are so nice to me on the forums and i just want to meet them all before i move back to PA. they really love their discipline of parkour and are always willing to help me learn new stuff // even if its just online descriptions of how to do stuff.

ne way i should get going over to Ms. Eileen's house today. theres only a few more boxes in the attic and then we're done with the work part but i've made a friend for life // u know? tis always good to have someone so wise to be able to just go to and talk about ur probs.

l8r t8rs // <-- havent done that in a long time.

random stuff

so a few days ago i was out mowin the neighbor's yard and i was wearin my bikini and had my hair pulled up in a ponytail. no really i'm quite modest but i have good self esteem and i know i'm pretty and i have a nice body. i have long dirty blonde hair that i usually wear in a high ponytail. i have large boobs but just cuz i'm blonde and have big boobs doesn't mean i'm stupid. i hate that people just automatically assume that. ne way i'm 5 ft 6 in tall and i'm thin and fit. i run and the stupid cheerleaders at school call ME anorexic just cuz i go outside to run in my sports bra and shorts and show off my abs// which i'm quite proud of my abs! :P so ne way i was mowing the yard and 3 different times 3 diff cars drove by and swerved to the wrong side of the road. nothing like a horny man to make a girl feel HOT! heeheehaha!!! :P

there's a statewide pk jam this saturday at the local college campus and i might go. thats IF my dad will take me. mom's out of town with joe so i'm at dad's house. i hope to meet all the nice peeple i met on the forum. there have been some nice peeple on there// even one girl. ne way i'll let u know if i get there and have fun. maybe someone can tell me how to improve my grip.

gotsta go to Ms. Eileen's house now for lunch and some work.

school ... is almost over for me

so we are officially moving back to PA at the end of August. mom gave me the choice of staying with dad and staying at my school here in NC or moving back to PA and returning to my old school. mom always calls me "Rory" after the girl on Gilmore Girls cuz she says im that responsible and she left the decision up to me. well see if i stay here in NC i can meet all sorts of new people and have the opportunity to attend any of the major colleges here //duke/ unc/ ncstate/ app state/all the unc colleges/ and all the others that are within a rocks throw distance. there are colleges all over this state and that means opportunities abound. contrary to the way i write on here and online/ i really do have a brain and im really quite intelligent. i have a 5.0 weighted gpa at school and i generally dont even have to try. i have already taken 4 AP classes and can actually start out at college in my second semester. /// but i luv pop culture so i <3 internet lingo.

ne way /// if i stay here in NC i have to go another 2 yrs of high school // jr and sr year. but with my old hs back in PA i can actually graduate at the end of my jr yr cuz i've got all the credits i need. ive already applied and gotten in to several colleges but i haven't decided where i wanna go. i could go to U of Penn and i'm just quite happy that i got into an ivy league school. makes me proud and all smiles that my brain has paid off. u know? but i'm not sure i want to go to college with rich snotty kids that are going to be significantly older than me. i mean/ i'm prob more mature than most of them but still the age thing is there and socially its a problem. /// if i stay in NC i'm a resident and will only pay instate tuition to these schools. if i go back to PA i will pay instate tuition only in PA // obviously. so money is a factor. it's why ive been working so much this summer cuz im gonna need the money for living expenses while in college.

so ne way i guess what i'm sayin is that i'm moving back to PA to finish up high school by may // possibly december if they let me// and then work some more next summer and then go to college a year early and start as sophmore //by then i'll have more classes for college credit. also i MIGHT be able to do a dual enrollment type thing and go to the community college and get some college classes in too. idk yet what will happen exactly but i'm all for getting a head start on my "adult life." :P also, i can come back and stay with my dad during all the breaks and even maybe next summer. that will be nice cuz i'll get to visit Ms. Eileen. shes the one who helped me make the decision. she kept saying that i needed to make the decision for ME and no one else.

til the next blog ///

update

well/ well/ well /// an online friend of mine told me to use well instead of good. shes quite the adverb nut. :P ///

so i've been workin more and more with Ms. Eileen and babysitting. the little 4 yr old girl down the street. she's a cute kid and quite fun. the best thing is that they do "quiet time" for an hour a day and it's part of the time that i'm there. so i get paid to do nothing. sometimes i do the dishes during that time but that's not much and never takes more than 10 minutes.

so Ms. Eileen and i have been hangin out daily even if i don't work for her. she's such a nice lady. she's so wise and has some great stories. we go thru almost a photoalbum a day and just tell stories about the pictures. she's got a great memory for her age. i think all kids my age should be hangin out with the elderly peeps. u can just learn so many life lessons. Ms. Eileen has literally seen it all. shes been in love// shes had friends and loved ones die// shes had several jobs// she knows people// she has seen the worst in the world with the wars (her first husband died in WWII). shes just had such a wonderful life full of happiness and tragedy and shes survived it all. it's amazing and inspiring. we talk about everything -movies/ tv/ actors/ politics/ books/ music/ love/ sex/ friendship/ relationships/ trust/ honesty/// just everything.

so i've also been training a little bit of parkour stuff. i really suck but i like it so far. i can pretty much do decent length precision jumps pretty good //i mean well// but everything else i have to work on. i have been trying cat leaps but i have no grip and no upper body strength so i can't pull myself up. so i just hang on the wall and then slip and fall to the ground. my beautiful legs are all scraped up but that's what neosporin is for right? :P ne way ive been doing pushups and attempting pullups but i cant do too many of those cuz i'm not that strong yet. i'm getting there and i can do 2 underhand and 3 overhand pullups. i randomly do pushups throughout the day in sets of 25. i dont know what to do yet for the grip issue. i keep sliding and don't know what the next step is. ive been asking other traceurs and reading online but can't find an idea that will work for me. if ne one out there has any suggestions i'm all for em.

oooh, in case i forget, my next blog is about school and possibly graduating early...

nuttin' much

wowzers! i swam my wittle heart out today. and i baked in the sun. i'm burnt and exhausted and i've got to babysit tomorrow morning from 8-noon and then i'm heading over to Ms. Eileen's to work some more. i don't really have much more to say tonite but i thaught i'd blog some more. i miss this whole gettin my thoughts out.

so let's see what can i talk about/// hmmm/// how about my fave actors? i <3 kirsten dunst// orlando bloom// freddie highmore// dakota fanning// john travolta// tom hanks// reese whitherspoon// amanda bynes// jim belushi// audrey hepburn// grace kelly// marlon brando// vivien leigh /// and the list goes on. i <3 old movies in black and white. my mom and i have been watching them since i was a little kid. i was like 6 or so when i first saw casablanca. and i just thaught that humphrey bogart was the cutest ever and i was going to marry him. i was very disappointed to learn that he was dead and couldn't marry me. mom likes to tell people that i cried but i don't remember crying.

i should prob get to sleep now and just stop blabbering about on the computer. my IM's are going quite crazy right now so i've got to sign off on all of them. i do luv my online friends but i'm tired tonite. :P

summa tyme

so i've got today off so i'm going to finally blog.

so i was going back and forth with my mom to PA and NC for several weeks. mom can't make up her mind about where she wants to live and work. she likes both places. she's worried that she's messin me up but i'm okay either way. i'm very outgoin and i can survive most things so i told her to make the decision for herself cuz it's her job and she's going to have to be working it every day.

so i've been back in NC now for 2 wks an i've been nonstop busy with babysitting and mowing yards and cleaning Ms Eileen's attic out. that is like the biggest job ever. she's got a LOT of crap up there. i've been workin for 7 hrs nearly every day for 2 wks and im only about 1/2 done with it. i love the nostalgia feeling of the attic. i'm happy to report that it's not as hot up there as i thaught it'd be. if we leave the drop down door open the ac comes up and theres a fan up there so it's cooler. she's got sum cool photos up there tho. they r like real sepia colored cuz thats the way they were originally u know? like not computer generated sepia or by turning the button on ur camera. they were original black and whites. the clothing is that classic antique look. those are the main boxes i brought down already so she could go thru em while i work. old people amaze me. she can't remember what she had for breakfast but she can remember a pic of her when she was 6 and tell a story about it. i'd probably actually be done by now if we didn't stop every hour to add an hour of talking. i didn't really expect to like this lady so much. but missin my own grandparents back in PA i luv her company and i really am beginning to luv her.

so yesterday i brought down boxes and boxes of old clothing. early 1900's clothing. she said some of it was her mother's. she had one tie from her dad but it was kinda biodegrading or something cuz it was like really stringy and faded and falling apart. i guess her brother had her dad's stuff. for the most part the stuff is junk but i like the special finds. its well worth it just for those special pieces of her history that brings a hugemongous smile to her face. i actually found her doll up there yesterday but i left it up there because i can't wait to hear the stories about it. i'll bring it down tomorrow at the end of the day so i can have time for the stories. she has a few other toys up there.

so i saw one mouse up there yesterday. i couldn't catch it but if i do i'll just take him outside. he looked a bit scared of me. i <3 animals and would never hurt the poor little thing. maybe i'll make a humane trap for it so that it doesn't die in the attic or worse yet go downstairs to where Ms Eileen's cat is.

so i'm gonna to have to have some help when i get to the big things of furniture to bring down. she's got a vanity stand that's like a dresser// 2 or 3 dressers// some lamps// a baby crib// and some stands that might be bookcases.

so i haven't had much time for outside play or exercise. of course carrying boxes and goin up an down stairs for 7 hrs a day is quite a workout. that's y i haven't blogged in so long. i've been too very tired. i haven't even had time to do any pk practicing. i was quite enjoyin it in PA and found a great playground that has precision jumps and cat leaps and some simple vaults that i practiced on lots when i was there but i haven't had much time to do anything now that i've been back in NC. but i have been stopping every now and then in the attic to attempt some pullups on the wood rafter thingys. i can now do like 3 full pullups in a row that are really good. i can do several really sloppy ones but like the full on pullups only 3. i was talking to the other girl on ncpk //her name is yellow on those boards// and she was tellin me how being a girl can suck big time as a pk person //traceuse. she says boobs get in the way and that the upper body strength is hard so pulling urself up from a catleap is really hard. and yes my boobs get in the way quite a lots when i'm tryin to practice some pk. and i'm working really hard on my upper body strength. i wanna be abel to do muscles ups like the traceur blane that i found on utoob. he's awesomely cool and u should check out his utoob videos. :P he just props himself up like it's nothing. of course he prob weighs like nothing cuz he's so skinny and he definitely doesn't have boobs in his way.

so i think i'm going to go swimming today since Ms. Eileen is visitin someone else today. gonna go get the bikini and ride my bike to my friend's house to swim.

so did u notice i've started every paragraph with so? :P ive had lots of complaints about my lack of punctuation usage. one girl i met on utoob actually suggested i at the very least start using an apostrophe. so if u'll notice in this blog i did just that. i like my style but if people can't read it and understand it then it's pointless right?

still in PA

so we may be moving back to PA. im excited and not. i was just starting to make some friends in NC and i was going to meet the peeps on NCPK and learn to do parkour. i even got a response from another girl //which is rare. but ive got my friends back in PA and my grandparents are there and kinda need us to be there. plus mom got a wonderful exciting job opportunity// her old job offered her a huge raise and a promotion. so its pretty likely. at least ill be with my best friend again. carson u know i luv u.

so we have just been chillin poolside lately. ive got a fantastic tan and my hair is lightening nicely and naturally. ha! be jealous peoples! im gorgeous! and not really conceited but im confident that i look damn good. :P

well im going out tonight with the girls so i should get off the computer now.

I love PA

im having a blast here in PA. i had some free time before we leave for Philly to go shopping so i thought id blog about the party last night.

carson invited all of our friends over and we just hung out. were not the stereotypical teenagers who have parties and drink til we barf. we just had some junk food and pop and chocolate. we dont drink we dont smoke and we dont do drugs. its what allows our parents to trust us. we dont believe in substances that alter our brains and who we are naturally. u know? plus/ who wants to take the chance of breaking the law and getting caught?

so there were about 20 of us all chillin in carsons basement// or as we call it / heaven. :P theres a ping pong table/ a pool table/ a table for board games or whatnot/ and even a pinball machine! his parents are really cool about us staying as long as we want as long as we clean up after ourselves. weve been doing this for about 5 years now. i rock at ping pong but suck at pool.

oh and car's house has a pool so we swam for a while. 8 boys and 12 girls in bikins is quite the picture. :P were all so damn HOT! :P

well ive actually gotta go cuz were goin to Philly to shop at the gallery downtown. woot!

I'm off to PA

well/ im off to PA for 6 days! i cant wait to see everyone and just hang out and play games and some soccer /PA style! which for those of u who are not from my town in PA/ that means that we suck and play with our own rules. :P

best of all im done with exams/ school is out/ and i get to just chill for 3 months. im gonna work on my tan and go swimming every day. it was like 100 degrees out yesterday and i was considering making eggs on the sidewalk out front. :P

sorry to cut this short again/ but im gonna go pack. i leave in a couple hours. woot!

exams

exams suck. thats really all i have to say. ive been studying and taking exams at school. i didnt even run today cuz i need to study for my math exam. i cant wait til schools out. ugh this sucks and blows at the same time.

i'm going to PA for a visit

im at school and mom just texted me to let me know that i can go to PA the first week after school is out. im totally excited. i havent been back since we moved and i just miss everyone so very much. im flying in by myself and staying with my grandparents for the week.

while excited im a bit nervous too cuz i havent seen all my friends for so long. u know? its gonna be weird but im gonna talk carson into throwing a party so we can all be together and hang out. gonna have to play some games and some soccer!

ive got to study for my exams and eoc's.

summer -jobs and trips and money oh my!

so ive got some summer jobs lined up. maybe thatll keep me busy and ill be able to get a tan. im gonna be mowing yards in our neighborhood and babysitting and cleaning this ladys house down the street. shes old and cant really get around her house any more. sounds like it came from the movies cuz ill be cleaning out her attic to start with. shes 85 so there could be some interesting things up there. i just hope that the air conditioner works up there cuz its gonna be hot and musty. but shes paying me a lot just to clean out the attic and make sure everything comes down to the first floor so she can help sort it all out. she says shes not gonna live much longer and shed rather go through the stuff so her kids and grandkids dont have to when she dies. she keeps saying shes almost ready to go but God is letting her stay around for a while longer so she should make herself useful. shes excited cuz theres old photos up in that attic that she hasnt seen in years and she wants to send them to her kids. two of them are out in california and one is in nebraska. her grandkids are all spread out over the country and one is in scotland/ i think. maybe its england? idk. anyway i luv old people. u can learn so much from them. makes me miss my grandma and grandpa back in PA. i think ill call them tonight.

so im hoping that the kids i have agreed to babysit are good kids. its a 7 year old boy and a 5 year old girl. i dont really know them but mom says they seem good. she sees them out riding their bikes quite often. i guess as long as i dont have to change any stinky diapers im game. :P

and the lawn mowing is going to rock hard on my tan. i can i can mow in a bikini top and shorts and make the neighbors stare. HAHA! :P im not conceited but i am pretty damn confident in my body. /// think ill save that for another blog though. maybe as soon as im done with this one?

so mom and my step dad are wanting to take a few trips this summer too, but ive asked if i could stay with my dad. unless they are going to europe i dont wanna go anywhere. i may go to the beach one or two weekends but i honestly just like sleeping in my own bed. im not a tourist and mom is. she likes the touristy spots like museums and shops and junk like that. i like to see how people live in a new area. like go to the grocery store or the post office and just be around the different people/ hearing the different accents/ seeing the different clothing/ listening to the different music/ etc. museums are really the same everywhere. sure there are a few that are extra special / like the louvre/ but for the most part they are all the same. mom used to drag me to art museums when i was younger. i think every single art museum had an f'in mummy in it. its just not what makes my heart go. to each his own i guess.

so they are going to st augusting florida/ alabama to visit my step dads family/ and chicago to see my aunt. i wouldnt mind going to chicago cuz my aunt and i are cool. shes a musician on the side. she works a desk job during the day and plays clubs on the weekends. its so glamorous. HOT! :P

well i should get some lunch now cuz its late.

i still dont have a clever ending for my blogs. any suggestions?

fast food

i LOVE fast food resteraunts! really i do. i know its unhealthy but i luv mcdonalds and wendys and taco bell and burger king. theres something about mcdonalds fries that just //yum yum yum. i think its the salt. do they use a special salt?

i even thought about getting a job at wendys for the summer cuz u get half off ur food. :P

someday im gonna find out how to make the bigmac special sauce. it kinda seems like just mayo ketchup and relish but theres something else in there too. anyone out there know?

wendy's burgers are clearly the best though. even though they are square. they aren't frozen/ they are fresh and juicy.

so id luv to have a burger from wendys/ fries from mcdonalds/ chicken from burger king// or as dane cook calls it/ the bk lounge// milkshakes from arbys///// why cant there be one single fast food resteraunt that has all good stuff?

kissing

saturday is here once again and im realizin that i got too much time on the weekends and im worried that when school is out ill be bored out of my shizzle.

so next topic// kissing

i LOVE to kiss. kissing is HOT. but kissing should ONLY be done between two people who care about one another. its very very intimate and youre so close to the person. kissing is way better than sex. its f'in HOT! i dont think people should kiss other people if they dont actually feel anything for them. like in the movies /pretty woman for example/ vivian doesnt kiss on the mouth cuz its too personal. thats what im sayin cuz it is. notice to all guys who read my blog/ if u kiss a girl and dont really want to be with her/ ur just plain cruel. its mean cuz the girl is gonna think that u want to be with her. and by be with her i mean love her/ im not talking about having sex.

specifically/ kissing should be slow and soft. now it can be forceful and aggressive but it shouldnt be rushed. its hard to explain the difference but i hope that makes sense. absolute passion should be in every single kiss.

as hard as it is to get a good kiss/ itd be harder after a failed kiss. so these are my tips/ in no particular odrer.

1. dont eat onions or garlic before u plan on kissing unless ur kissing partner has eaten the same things.

2. some people like dry kisses/ some people like wet kisses/ either way dont kiss when uve got cotton mouth.

3. it is often ok to use a breath mint or some gum before u kiss but make sure its gone before u kiss otherwise ur partner may get a surprise.

4. be confident/ pick the right moment and go for it.

5. always tilt ur head to the left first so u dont bump noses. this is the most common starting point. some people then pivot left and right but it is not necessary and can be very passionate either way.

6. if its the first time to kiss this partner u should start out with closed mouth kisses/ then move to open mouth kisses/ then move to tongue kisses. dont just jump to tongue kisses immediately cuz u will surprise ur partner.

7. french kissing // avoid making circular motions /like swirling/ur tongue. also dont just shove ur tongue in the other persons mouth/ u may make them gag and that would not be pretty or sexy. dont let ur entire tongue go in the other persons mouth either/ they have one of their own they dont need urs too. ur tongue should just gently massage the other persons.

8. dont eat the persons face. yes open ur mouth wide and move together with ur partner but u dont need to suck their face off or nom nom nom their face.

9. hands // at least one hand should be on the persons face or head. gently rub their cheek or massage their head //most guys dont know that a head massage is very sensual and erotic. ur hands should always ALWAYS be touching the other person/ whether thats touching their face the whole time or rubbing their neck or arms or massaging their ass/ just remember to rub and massage and NOT grope.

10. occasionally while kissing you should just kiss solely the bottom lip or solely the top lip of the other person. sometimes even a gentle bite or nibble is nice.

11. it is even ok to lick the other persons teeth. in fact some people are really turned on by this.

12. necking and hickeys // discuss hickeys with ur partner cuz some people are embarrassed by them and some people like to show theirs off cuz it means they have been kissing someone. necking does not and should not be like a hoover vacuum cleaner. open mouthed kissing is fine as is a little licking. however /most people go not like to be slimed or slobbered on!

13. all in all if it feels right ur probably doing it right. but it doesnt hurt to ask ur partner if what ur doing is making them feel good or if u should change anything. most girls will tell u when they want something to change.

ok so now im all hot and bothered and i wish i had a bf to take care of business /if ya know what i mean.

check out these utoob vids that i think are just HOT HOT HOT!!!

french kissing



and a rembrandt toothpaste commercial /// one of the sexiest things ever is when a girl and a guy put their foreheads together and just smile at one another.

dane cook

i <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 DANE COOK! the man is super HOT and so damn funny. his delivery is spot on and he just tells the truth all the time. i luv that comedians can do that// just tell normal every day things and thats whats the funniest.

good luck chuck was so f'in funny and had some HOT scenes.

so i recently watched a ton of utoob DANE COOK clips and i love the crying one and all of the viscous circle ones! fantastic and made me nearly piss myself. the movies bit is great too. and when he talks about the first time he got head its classic. he starts with "It's going to be a coming of age tale, so come along with me." hahahaha!! i know im a perv. :P "that's what i say when i get head, i say shazam!" // id like to make him say shazam! :P this vid is classic and so funny // again cuz its so true!

oh and the one night stand bit is great too. "i hold your skull like a predator *insert noises here*" hes just so awesomely funny.

love how he always calls the lower region of the body "the other person's cash and prizes" :P and omg // "DJ diddles ... spinning the clits of the 80's and 90's up and down the labia!" HAHAHA! hes f'in hilarious!

yes im a utoob addict!

im gonna go buy his HBO Tourgasm dvd this weekend.

im a thief and so is carson

when car and i were kids we used to steal candy from the local carry out store. i think the owner/ mr kercher/ knew we were doing it but he never said anything. wed get lemonheads and red hots and fire balls and jaw busters. car likes those boston baked beans candy and i think they are nasty. like black licorice nasty. oh and i liked the wonka stuff// gobstoppers rule!

before i moved i went in to say good bye to mr kercher and i left a fifty dollar bill at the counter for him. i had been mowing yards so i had some extra money and i felt bad so i left it for him.

i think thats all i have to say about that.

geez/ short blog.

future blogs

so ive decided that i want to do some topical blogs and im gonna go ahead and put up the topics as posts so ive got kinda a list. just lettin u know y there are gonna be blank blogs with just titles.

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future topics will be

carson and i are theives
more quotes
kissing
my ex bf malcolm
dane cook
moms issues and how we deal
summer work
juno and teen pregnancy and birth control
fast food
remote controls
and more to come

some quotes i like

since these are quotes im gonna actually use some punctuation and caps. keep in mind my bf broke up with me 5 weeks and 5 days ago so these are reminiscent of my mood lately//

Beauty only gets attention, personality captures the heart.

Sometimes a girl just needs a boy to hold her hand.

It's the ones that always keep you smiling that you don't ever want to lose.

Wait for the one who makes you smile like no one else.

You know you're in love when you can't fall asleep because reality is finally better than your dreams. -Dr. Seuss

There would not be so many stars if we all had the same wish.

A true friend is someone who knows all your faults ... and loves you anyway. -Edna Buchanan

Anyone can capture your eye, but it takes someone special to capture your heart.

It's funny how someone can break your heart and you can still love them with all the little pieces.

The worst thing a guy can do is make a girl fall for him with no intentions of catching her.

There are two kinds of secrets: those we keep from others, and those we keep from ourselves.

The hardest thing in life is watching the one you love, love someone else.

No man is worth your tears and the one who is will never make you cry.

The biggest risk in life is not taking the risk.

False hope is better than no hope at all.

As for you, my galvanized friend, you want a heart? You don't realize how lucky you are not to have one. Hearts will never be practical unless they are made unbreakable. -Frank L. Baum

A heart is not judged by how much you love, but by how much you are loved by others. -Frank L. Baum

"Stay" is a charming word in a friend's vocabulary. -Louisa May Alcott

You are your most valuable asset. Don’t forget that. You are the best thing you have. -(this came from a book i read in middle school, but i cant remember which one, but my teacher used to say it all the time)

The only way to have a friend is it be one. -Ralph Waldo Emerson

A guy and a girl can be just friends, but at one point or another, they will fall for each other ... maybe temporarily, maybe at the wrong time, maybe too late, or maybe forever. -Dave Matthews Band

Don't cry because it's over, smile because it happened.

You never lose by loving. You always lose by holding back. -Barbara DeAngelis

How lucky am I to have known someone who was hard to say goodbye to.

The best way to keep your friends is not push them away.

Where you go, go with all your heart. -Confucius

I'm jealous of every girl who has ever hugged you because for that one minute, one moment, they held my entire world.

You will never know true pain until you lok into the eyes of someone you love, and they turn away.

Tears are like kisses, the only real ones are the ones you can't hold back.

The glory of friendship is not the out-stretched hand, nor the kindly smile, nor the joy of companionship; it is the spiritual inspiration that comes to one when he discovers that someone else believes in him and is willing to trust him with his friendship. -Ralph Waldo Emerson

We come to love, not by finding a perfect person, but by learning to see an imperfect person perfectly.

You hurt me more than I deserve; how can you be so cruel?
I love you more than you deserve; why am I such a fool?

One day you will seek love and be sorry you thew mine away.

last one for tonight///

What's the point in living when the one you love the most refuses to love you?

utoob and parkour vids

so ive been spending lots of time on utoob and i luv it. there are so many creative people out there and of course there are a ton more that just suck. theres some funny stuff online and ive got a fave list that keeps growing daily. u can find anything on utoob // kinda like ebay. utoob is a world all on its own. theres jokes and vlogs and made up commercials and extreme sports and comedians and serious people and tv shows and tutorials and kissing and soft porn and cartoons and// the list goes on and on.

im not done yet but ive gotta eat some breakfast///

may 29 //ok so im gonna continue this now i guess.

so this is my understanding of parkour/// parkour is HOT and sexy as are most traceurs. parkour is this discipline that bases itself on getting from point A to point B in the most efficient way possible. efficiency is key in a traceurs life. a traceur is a person who does parkour. so what do they do? well they jump on things and over things and climb things and run and vault over things and /etc. theres a sister "sport" and its freerunning or urban gymnastics and tricking or street stunts. basically if there are flips added in to the moves/ its not parkour. u should definately check out the videos on utoob. i have some pk vids in my faves. my utoob id is parkourishot.

i just find pk to be really inspiring. to watch what these people can do with theirselves and see it happen so smoothly// it flows// u just no they work hard to be able to do that. ive started a little bit of training but even if i dont end up doing pk i still get inspired and motivated by watching the utoob vids. i have just been doin stuff on flat ground for now cuz im a girl im just learning and i dont wanna get hurt. ive been readin up on pk on some websites and everyone who does pk has been so nice. its like a community. almost everyone is very careful and takes their time with their training. my cuz does karate and ive got a friend who does taekwondo so i say its kinda like when u learn a martial art. like u take baby steps instead of just all of a sudden knowin how to kick someone a certain way. if anyone out there reads this and im wrong please correct me! :P

i crush on some traceurs that ive seen on utoob. like the founder of pk David Belle. hes so f'in HOT! and Danny Ilabaca he's HOT! and Chase Armitage is HOT! and Blane /idk his last name/ is HOT! and Stephane Vigroux is OMG HOT HOT HOT!!! and TK17 is a unique HOT// hes a redhead and doesnt look like other traceurs but i think hes got a certain cuteness about him// hes also got a nice ass. any of the vids below that have a redhead in them its prob TK17. oh and he lives in my state so if i ever decide to go to a jam//thats when a bunch of tracuers get together to train// i could meet him! all the rest of those guys live in europe.

so i say u definitely need to go to utoob and watch the following//

Evolution by Kamikazeepanda //i think this is the original but idk for sure cuz there are several copies of this vid on utoob

Parkour and FreeRunning by sauloca

search for any vid with David Belle and watch them ALL! :P

anything by slamcamspam, chase3runmedia, ChrisIlabaca,

Go by TKfrom3run

Excelsior (ever upward) by Blaneuk

3run Family Part 1 and 2 by dotajames //i thaught this was done by tk17 but its on utoob under dotajames?//thats weird.

if ur interested in pk and live in nc/ do a search for NC Parkour and watch some of those too

Parkour Nuit //u might have to go to google vid to see this one//its kinda spiritual feeling

and then do a search for Pilgrimage. its on utoob in a bunch of different pieces cuz its like and hr and a half long but its out there in cyberland for downloads and totally worth the time it takes to dl it. it was done by TK17 and is awesome.

websites u should check out:
3run.co.uk
parkourgenerations.com
americanparkour.com //they have a link for each state
ncparkour.com //if ur in nc

jewelry making

so another thing about myself is that i luv to make jewelry. mostly beaded stuff but im all for strings and embroidery floss too. i could live in a.c. moores bead aisles. i prefer glass beads but ill use plastic ones and wood ones if they are pretty enough. even though my fave color is orange i luv blues and purples for jewelry. dark blues are the best with a pattern and then a single solid color of purple or white even will make it just stand out. i have made necklaces/bracelets/ earrings/ and even rings. its nice cuz when birthdays come up i can just make some jewelry and my friends are happy. except carson cuz hes a boy and doesnt wear jewelry. but i made him a strand of beads for his rearview mirror in his car. ive been tempted to sell some of my stuff but i dont really make it for other people. i make it for me and i luv to wear it. my next goal in my creative side is to make some new clothing for myself. one of a kind stuff // just like me. :P

wow/ short blog but thats all i have to say about that.

gonna get some lunch.

my next blog really will be about utoob and parkour videos!

myspace and facebook

for those who have asked. no i dont have a myspace page or a facebook page. i dont care to either. its too much drama and it just not me. i do have IM but im not giving that out on here. if u wanna know my sn just shoot me a message and ill send it to u if i want u to have it. not everyone is that special. :P

I wanna talk about me...

from I Wanna Talk About Me by Toby Keith:

I wanna talk about me
Wanna talk about I
Wanna talk about number one
Oh my me my
What I think, what I like, what I know, what I want, what I see
I like talking about you you you you, usually, but occasionally
I wanna talk about meeeeee
I wanna talk about me

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soooo this blog is about me. number 1. numero uno. me me me me me. do i sound selfish enough yet? its time you learned about me.

my birth name is Louetta Elizabeth Renee and im not giving out my last name cuz of online idiots. i know my name isnt the best name ever but ive grown to like it. my friends call me loulou and my parents call me lou. of course when im misbehavin my mom calls me by my full name. :P my name comes from my parents names// dad is Lou and mom is Lynette. my middle names come from my two grandmothers. i guess i could technically take any of my names and come up with something better sounding than loulou but it really does fit me now. ive grown into my name and if i ever become a rock star ive got the name for it/ right? :P oh and i guess i can say that my last name starts with an O so that if i ever say that carson called me lero (pronounced LEE ROW) ud at least know why he calls me that. but hes the only one aloud to call me that.

i was born on april 17, 1992 so im an aries. i think im like a full on aries too. im very selfish at times and i love to be the center of attention and i pretty much always get my way. mom says im a cusp baby and thats where i get my stubborn side. grandma says it comes from her and daddy. who knows? i have a hard time believe that my birthdate has anything to do with how i am as a person but there are so many people that at least believe in it a little bit. mom does. not the newspaper horoscopes but just in general. her best friend claims to be a gypsy and does tarrot readings at parties for hopeless souls who have no life. :P

anyway im an aries and i really do fit a lot of the characteristics. im adventerous and energetic and confident. but ive also got the bad qualities of an aries too. im impulsive and impatient and at times i can be REALLY self centered. it all has to be about me me me me ME! but i dont really have a short temper like the aries is supposed to have. with all the astrology talk mom says i should find myself a scorpio. my ex bf was a leo and mom says thats bad. who cares though a person is a person is a person. right? :P

so again lets talk more about ME! i luv movies of all kinds. pop culture ones/ action/ sci fi/ but most of all i luv a good chick flick. i think i already said this before in a blog but i really do luv love stories. i also luv good v evil stories. hence the love of harry potter.

i dont drink or smoke but i have tried both. i just dont think i should have to "acquire a taste" for something in order to enjoy it. beer is nasty chit and i have no desire to drink so much of something to make me not me. u know? whats the point in that? i dont get it. and smoking. yes i tried it but damnit was a waste of money. sure it is calming but its not worth the money or the long term effects. i have also tried some mary jane before but i totally bill clintoned it cuz i was scared of the effects cuz i had to drive home and i dont have a lisence. i never would have done that back in PA. i may try it again some day but not for now. im actually guna try to get into a college soon.

what else do i like? well i love talking on the phone/ being online chats/ watching tv//i like one tree hill but im not addicted and i like desperate housewives and greys anatomy but again im not addicted. id rather be online or chatting with people instead of just watching people. but that patrick dempsey is HOT! not nearly enough red heads on tv though!

oh i luv soccer. mia hamm rules the world in my eyes. but i really suck at it. i can barely dribble the ball down a field but i used to play in the neighborhood back in PA. i havent really done much here in NC. i wouldnt make the school team and thats okay. im not really that competitive about it.

what else can i say? its a saturday night and im at home at 9:30 at night and im just chillin online. i could have gone to a party tonight but thats just not my scene. im sure allyson/ marissa/ and dawn will fill me in on tuesday at school.

oo/ i luv pickles. did i say that yet? mom says i get it from her. my fave thing is/// dont be grossed out/// my fave thing is dill pickles with peanut butter. its what mom ate when she was pregnant with me and i live for it. most people think its just grossest but its totally fabulouso and u should really try it out sometime. let me know if u do and u think its good too. other foods i luv are peaches and pretty much any fruit. i really <3 goldfish crackers and pretzels too. i hate broccoli and celery and brussel sprouts. who ever thought to cook those smelly things anyway? gross! the only veggies ive found i like are green beans/ peas/ and carrots. the very basics that mom basically force fed me when i was an baby.

oh and i should prob mention that i play the piano. im kinda good for real cuz ive been playin for 8 years now. i dont have a teacher here in NC but i still practice for ms roberts back home in PA. shed be proud of me cuz i can now play Perpetuum mobile by Weber and it actually sounds pretty good. im not one of those people with the talent in their blood i have to work my tail off to get my fingers to do the work and they dont always want to reach as far as i want them to. the Weber song took me sev months to learn just the notes in order then i had to do just treb clef and then bass clef and then section by section i did both combined. all that for just one piece of music. but now ive got it memorized. i thought id hunt for a new teacher but i dont really need one any more as long as i force myself to practice. i can read music and i can buy my own books so really what can anyone teach me that ms roberts didnt already teach me? well see where this practicing on my own takes me. my next goal is some Chopin. either Revolutionary or Nocturne 9-2. i havent decided. oh and see how ive capitalized certain things now// there are some things that are just truly that important and that special that they deserve to be capitalized. theres a reason songs by Chopin and Weber have been around forever//they have "stood the test of time" for years and years. i also play the flute but i didnt join band when i got to NC. i dont really care to either. not a fan of the schools band cuz they pretty much suck and im better than that. i didnt want to be associated with them. so the flute playin is on hold for now. but as long as ive got the old baldwin at home im good. id kill for a benard webster ebony grand or a steinway walnut grand but those fuckers costs more than a car! my p's will never get me that. i need to become rich and famous someday so i can own me one of them.

all this piano talk has made me wanna go play now.

i need a fun quote to end my blogs with/// how about

"always acknowledge a fault. this will throw those in authority off their guard and give you an opportunity to commit more."
or
"courage is resistance to fear, mastery of fear -not abscence of fear."
or
"do the thing you fear most and the death of fear is certain."

all of those are mark twain quotes. i luv him.

for my next blog i think ill write about youtube videos and maybe about parkour.

My parents -divorced and happy

so now i want to tell u about my parents. i luv them but damn can they be stupid. they used to fight all the time when i was a kid. it didnt really effect me cuz i was just used to it. they stayed together just to make me happy but really it made them miserable and i new it. one day when i was 10 they were fighting in the kitchen and it got physical when my mom slapped my dad across the face. he called her a stupid cheating whore and she went at him with claws drawn like a lion ready to pounce. dad turned to leave and saw me standing in the doorway. they both tried to appologize to me but i just said "why dont u just get a divorce already"// they finally agreed and they have both never been happier. they actually get along so much better now that they dont live together. some people just are not meant to be together for eternity. mom married the guy she was cheating on dad with. his name is joe and hes pretty cool. much better for mom than dad was. dad is now dating shawna and shes pretty cool too. im really not that kid in the storybooks who wants their parents to get back together. i saw what it did to them and im happier now that they are happy.

things never got ugly like in most divorces. sure there were hard times and they debated over what to do with me. both of my parents love me and i know that so it was hard when they asked me who i wanted to live with. they let me decide. i ended up chosing mom cuz i think she needs me more. i know shes got joe but i think she needs me there on a daily basis to just be happy. dad loves me and its not like he makes me feel unwanted but //its hard to explain.

so dad moved shortly after the divorce to north carolina. and mom and i stayed in PA. dad had gotten a job and financially he needed to move. it was actually sad for all of us. change is never an easy thing but he had to move. i didn't get to see him for like 6 months and it was really hard. so mom and i talked and we came down to visit. she mostly stayed in a hotel and i stayed with dad but what i didnt know is that mom was job hunting in the area while i was with dad. mom found a job with a local finance company and we moved within the next month. it was hard to leave my friends behind especially carson//but it really was the best for our family. joe found a construction job pretty much immediately and is working a lot. mom works monday through friday and of course dad has his job with the garage.

weve been here since october and im adjusting // but i miss carson the mostest.

growing up in PA -continued -sorta

so where was i? ahh yes i was talking about school. well lets see//my fave subject is LA. i luv to read and write. i really do know how to write "properly" but i prefer to write in my style -its kinda an online speak. u know? my LA teacher is the awesome one who gave me a list of books to read. i just started reading stargirl by jerry spinelli last night. its pretty good. the title character reminds me of luna lovegood in the harry potter books// just very unique and different and a complete nonconformist. wish i were that strong a person to just be me no matter what others think. but with moving and having to start over with friends i do find myself conforming to the ways of the other kids in school. i even wear clothes that i think are ridiculous cuz thats the style. actually its the fad and i do know the difference. i wear those tights with no feet in them with my little jean skirts and i wear a&f clothing. i mow the yard for money to keep up with the times.

so anyways i was going to write about my childhood right? so lets see// riding bikes/ playing tag/ playing tag ON our bikes/ climbing trees/ making up stories and adventures/ all the normal stuff that kids do //thats what carson and i did. we just have known each other for 12 years and i deeply miss him. when i moved it hit him quite hard too. i love him. not in that boyfriend kind of way but in a "i could spend the rest of my life with him" kind of way. thats not to say that id marry him but hed be like my backup. my safety. :P

let me tell u about carson. hes 6 feet 6 inches tall with red hair. a total ginger. i know/ hot right? anyways hes like a gentle giant. he does play basketball and is really good. u should see his layups but he doesnt play on the high school team cuz he doesnt like the coaches. hes gotten a little chubby lately cuz he hasnt been workin out but hes still beautiful to me. car/ i know ur reading this and i luv u and miss u. tell jenn i miss her too. thats his kid sister. so carson is like the sweetest guy ever. we talk about everything. i tell him all about my boyfriends and he tells me all about his girlfriends. btw car i really like ur current gf and i think shes good for u. wish my situation was as good as yours// but ill type about that later. so carson is always there for me. the perfect best friend. always good with advice. always tells me how it is for real. the kind of guy who will tell me if my butt really DOES look big in a particular pair of jeans. now THATS a real friend! :P

i have to go for now/// again// but ill be back later to write more.

Growing up in PA: Before the Move

ok so i thaught id tell about my early childhood and growing up in PA. again since this is online i cant really tell u my town cuz i dont need stalkers// leave the stalking to me. :P im a good online stalker :P

so my town was a suburb of a bigger city and we never really went to the big city. my family pretty much kept to its small town life. some farms, but mostly just the stereotypical small town atmosphere with very few chain stores and no mall. we did have a movie theater but only the dollar kind with older movies. but that wasnt really a problem for us. we made do. we werent really focused on pop culture.

we lived in a small yellow house on a street 4 blocks from the city park and city pool. we were one mile from the only school in town // yes it was the elementary, middle and high school in one building. i often road my bike or walked to school/ except when it snowed of course. my neighborhood was a main street with six smaller roads off of it that each ended in culdesacs. i lived in the last house at the end of the 6th road// the farthest away from the subdivision entrance. there were 10 kids that lived there and i met my best friend there when i was 4 years old. carson is the best. hes a year older than me but we were always in the same grade. when i moved away we cried together for a whole week. i still talk to him online and on the phone but its not the same any more. i miss him dearly. // anyway we used to play outside all the time. starting when we were 4 and 5 and we used to make mud pies in the back yard and have a MP picnic! the tree in carsons backyard was perfect for climbing and wed sit up in that tree and read books together. wed ride bikes to the small public library and bring some books back and climb the tree. we had a rope and bucket that we would use as a pulley to pull the books up to the higher branches. we had so much fun as kids. i just remember being careless and carefree.

school was always such a bore for me. recess was the only thing that made me smile during the days. i could never stay focused and my teachers never really understood me. in second grade i was actually placed in the gifted class. i couldnt figure out why i was being separated with the nerdy kids. my friends got to stay in class and read with the teacher and i had to go learn how to play mancala and chess with the nerds! i actually enjoyed the reading time with mrs conner and wanted so bad to go back to the regular class during that time.

math was always the hard thing for me. i never won the around the world game and i always felt stupid// which made me wonder how i ended up in the gifted class. ??? in fifth grade i finally understood basic math. ms. grant was very good at helping me learn some fractions//which i hated and still do/ but at least i can do them.

ive got to get some sleep. got a test tomorrow. ill write more about growing up in PA tomorrow during study hall.

my first blog

im loulou. this is my first blog on blogger. i plan to post often thruout the day and i welcome all comments even if ur a troll.

i dont like grammer and punctuation cuz of a bad LA teacher in 8th grade. i basically just write like this now cuz its my style// not that i dont know how to use punctuation properly or even capital letters/i do at school/ but this is me. if u dont like to read stuff with poor grammer and a lack of punctuation then ur in the wrong place. oh and i cant spell and dont really care about fixin the words that the computer underlines in red. some times i even spell things wrong on purpose. :P

so who am i? well im loulou and im 16 and live in north carolina. i used to live in pennsylvania but my dad and mom are divorced and actually both moved to nc/ dad first then mom/ so here i am. cant tell ya my city cuz of the freakish pedophilia and preditory people on the net// those sickos need to have their balls chopped off. anyways i havent lived here very long but its ok. the weather is nice as long as its not raining nonstop//beautiful skies and lots of green//even in winter! unlike PA.

a little about me? i say HOT alot// get used to that. ive got A.D.D. and dont like to take meds for it cuz i like being random. :P its not severe so my parents are with me on this. my fave color is orange and i love redheads! gingers are HOT! i dont care what cartman on southpark says :P // i also love movies. im a chick and luv chick flicks// all of them. teen dramas/romantic dramas/ romantic comedies/ as long as the movie has a love story in it im gonna watch it. i also luv harry potter//actually i luv ron more cuz of course hes a redhead. :P rupert grint is awesome and HOT! i recently saw pretty woman with julia roberts and that movie is fantastic and HOT! the piano scene is very HOT! i love how as a prostitute she doesnt kiss on the mouth cuz its too personal and passionate// its too intimate and kissing on the mouth is for people who really care about each other. unlike my ex bf who can just kiss and leave.

i luv to read too. harry potter books are my absolute fave but i also love sisterhood of the traveling pants/ the truth about forever/ eragon/ barefoot/ perfect you/ and some more. my current LA teacher suggested some books that im gonna start soon like//enchantment by orson card/ the last summer of you and me by anne brashares/ size 12 is not fat by meg cabot/ pride and prejudice by jane austin/ huckleberry finn by mark twain/ jane eyre by bronte/ frankenstein by shelley/ and a whole list. she knows i love to read so she made a list for me/ isnt that fantastic? shes my fave teacher this year.

study hall is almost over so ive got to go.

and so i end my first blog/ i feel like i should say something profound but i got nothing.
oh i can end with one of my fave quotes from the movie juno //

"You should've gone to China, you know, 'cause I hear they give away babies like free iPods. You know, they pretty much just put them in those t-shirt guns and shoot them out at sporting events." :P

thanks for readin!