Monday, November 10, 2008

and now he hates me

i am so stupid. i am a bad writer and this man took everything i said and twisted it into some awfulness to fit into his self hatred. i was just being curious and i never meant to hurt this man. i asked questions like i ALWAYS do with ALL of my online friends but he took those questions as accusations and judgement and thats NOT what i was doing. i feel horrible and he has made me feel like its my fault that he twisted my words. i may have to just give up on this online friendship and move on to the others that i communicate with. none of them have ever taken my words in such a mean way. i didnt mean to hurt him. i wouldnt do that and he acts like i did it on purpose. hes really fuckin messed up. and i thought i could at least understand him and let him talk if he felt the need to. i wasnt trying to sound condescending and i wasnt trying to be the big sister but im a girl and thats what we do. we give advise and we say "awwwwe" when things are bad or have gone bad. i just love people and want to understand people and human nature and if i end up helping thats fine. if not/ thats fine too.

im gonna lose a connection soon so i have to go. almost home.

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